“Do you feel fear when you create?” she asked. Yes. All the time. And right now, my anxiety is mounting as my two speaking gigs approach. So! Much! Fear!
I know she was referring to the fear of the blank page, the fear of making an ugly mark that I don’t like, but ultimately it’s all the same thing. Fear is fear.
Will I forget what I intended to say? Will my technology not work? Will the audience be bored? Will my break-out activity be fun for them, or bore them? Will they all leave the room in disgust?
And: will my ukulele break a string? Or just break? Will I have a wardrobe malfunction? Will I get sick? Will I lose my voice?
The anxiety and fear piles up in my chest like bricks, rising higher by the day.
But this is part of the process. This is just how it goes when you do something new.
All those questions are the voices of my gremlins, trying desperately to get me to STOP, to not leave my comfort zone. Trying to keep me safe. Trying to keep me from growing.
Because all growth and creativity happen OUTSIDE your comfort zone. So gremlins will use every trick in the book to try and keep you from leaving!
I just smile, thank them for their concern, and keep right on going.
I do my daily doodle, and get on with rehearsing, creating my slides, and preparing for my trip.
That’s the Creative Sandbox Way. 😊
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