So how’m I doing in my quest to re-invent my life, follow my evolving Blisses and create the life I really, really want?
Everything in my life seems to require it right now:
My recovering knee
Which I’m realizing, at 3 months post-op, is going to take significantly longer to get “back to full activity” than the 4 months the surgeon had assured would do it. A year, 2 years, 3 years is probably more like it. (Hell, it took 3 years for my foot to function normally, and that surgery was nothing compared to the reconstruction they did inside my knee.)
In fact, if I compare where I am now with where I was 6 or 8 weeks ago, it’s a tremendous improvement.
But is this what I focus on? No – I compare where I am not with where I want to be. Which feels far away and out of reach.
And I’m afraid the calcified lump on the medial side of my knee will never go away, leaving me permanently deformed.
My Internet Empire
Which wasn’t even a glimmer in my eye a year ago, and now I’m impatient that it isn’t grown to adulthood and running on its own.
In fact, if I compare where I am now with where I was a year ago, even 6 months ago, even 3 months ago, I’ve made amazing strides.
But is this what I focus on? No – I compare where I am now with where I want to be. Or worse, with where my heroes are, or seem to be from the outside.
So-and-so launched a blog and less than 12 months later had 20,000 followers and was making a living.
Never a useful train of thought.
Not the ketubah business, which continues apace (and thank GOD for wedding season heating up!), but my Creative Sandbox art. Which I only started creating last summer, then put down and picked up again on Feb 1st, but I’m impatient to have a mature body of work to show and (hopefully) sell.
In fact, if I look at my underlying goal for my painting commitment – to be in touch with my creativity, to feel happy and alive – I’m doing great.
But is this what I focus on? No – I compare where I am now with where I want to be. Which feels far away and out of reach.
Not only do I have art to create, but I need to put the time and energy into getting it up online and out in the world where people can see it and possibly buy it.
There are other parts of my life where patience – mine or someone else’s – has paid off big-time. (Read my Valentine’s Day post for some specifics.)
Proof that patience is, indeed a virtue worth cultivating.