You make a goal to create the life you really, really want. Then you start doing stuff that you think is going to help you attain that goal.
Ie, creative stuff that you’re super-excited about, that you’re hoping will grow into a recurring source of income.
Said stuff is part of your briefcase of creative pursuits, and for awhile, doing it is as satisfying as doing your other art. You tell everyone said stuff is your art, and it is.
And the income source thing is important, because without it, you won’t have the resources to spend time on the other art you really love to do, too.
But pretty soon, you’re spending so much time on this stuff, creating it and promoting it, that it starts to eat you alive.
You’re feeling too pressured with deadlines (mostly self-imposed) around said stuff to be able to enjoy it the way you want. And you start to miss your other art more and more.
But you’re committed. This income-producing stuff is really important. The other art can wait.
Except that of course it can’t. Not happily.
So eventually, just before you run yourself completely into the ground from exhaustion working on said stuff, something clicks.
First, you surrender to physical reality, and drop a bunch of plans for promoting said stuff. You know you’ll probably suffer financially from not promoting as completely as you planned, but physics is physics.
Your sense of relief – though tempered by a feeling of being disheartened that your dreams for said stuff will not manifest as you’d hoped – is palpable.
And once you let that go, something else clicks.
Maybe it’s a conversation with someone. Maybe another artist. (Another artist you interview as part of said stuff, as it happens.)
Suddenly, you realize that you cannot wait one moment longer. The other art you’d been doing a few months back – before said stuff took over – is calling to you, and no matter how much you feel like you just don’t have the time, you know in your heart of hearts that this is just an excuse.
In fact, you do have the time, because after all, it really only takes 15 minutes to spend on your other art to make you feel like you’re connecting with it. And if you can’t find 15 minutes to get into the Creative Sandbox, then something is seriously wrong.
And apparently, putting 110% of your energy in one direction for months at a time is seriously wrong. (Though you knew this. You’ve learned this lesson before, but not well enough, it seems.)
So then and there you commit to yourself to spend at least 15 minutes a day on your other art, every day for the next month. Or this month, since it’s the first of the month when you make this commitment.
How serendipitous.
And here are the rules:
- Free of expectations.
- Free of preconceived notions.
- Totally open to the experience and the flow.
- “Preciousness” is not allowed.
- “Destroying” previously painted pieces by adding to them is encouraged.
- And once a week, something gets posted, regardless of how you feel about it. (Though you are allowed to share those feelings.)
Day 1 & 2: check!
Week 1 blog: check!
Watch this space.
Kim says
Point taken! I love seeing your creative work – the woman who’s living a creative life. Yesterday afternoon, my mind was so scattered. I kept trying to work, but it seems like nothing was getting done. I did listen to a few interviews, but deep down I knew I needed to step away and take a break – and I didn’t. Today, I will. Milo’s four for february challenge, here I come!
I look forward to seeing more of your creative work.
Melissa Dinwiddie says
Thanks Kim! I know that wanting-to-work-but-not-getting-anything-done place. Why is it so dang hard to take a break when that happens?
You’re not alone, Kim! I hope you get your break today, and space to do your creative thing. 🙂
Gumnut says
Yay, I’m so glad to hear this. I hope this feels better and your art blossoms.
Nutty
(off to bed)
Melissa Dinwiddie says
Infinitely better, yes! You’re a big inspiration, managing to keep up with your creative stuff even with two little kids! 🙂
Monette Satterfield says
I’m glad you took a step back – the view from here can be pretty good 🙂
Melissa Dinwiddie says
Yeah, that’s what I hear. 😉
Dianne Poinski says
I just went through something very similar! It always helps me to hear about other people’s experiences and I thank you for sharing. Love the “Yes, Yes, Yes..” piece. Can’t wait to see more!
Andy Dolph says
YES!!!
YES!!!
and the image with this post is just wonderful! is it a painting?
Andy
Melissa Dinwiddie says
@Dianne: glad my sharing was helpful! 🙂
@Andy: Thanks, and yes – mixed media painting: acrylics on canvas, with debossed translucent vellum sewn on. 🙂