I made this back in 2006, during a time when I was struggling to get myself to make *anything* that wasn鈥檛 commissioned by a client. I was so mired in perfectionist paralysis at that time of my life, so caught in the Comparison Trap, so convinced that I was a fraud, a hack, and would never live up to the potential that others had told me I had…
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I desperately wanted to make art鈥攆or joy, for the love of it鈥攁nd yet I just couldn鈥檛 seem to get myself to do it! And I didn鈥檛 understand why.
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I didn鈥檛 know back then that what I was experiencing was TOTALLY NORMAL. That it was the pressure to be AMAZING, not to mention to make a LIVING from my art, that was creating this death grip around my creative flow. The problem wasn鈥檛 that I didn鈥檛 have time, or that I wasn鈥檛 good enough (both lies I told myself), but simply that I wasn鈥檛 letting myself PLAY! 馃枍
This Rosh Hashanah card was a rare moment in a decade-long desert when I did play. It felt silly and frivolous and stupid at the time, but my soul needed it, and to my surprise, I actually kinda liked the result in the end. 馃枍
Sadly, it took several more years before I allowed myself to play like this on the regular. I didn鈥檛 get it right then鈥擨 guess I wasn鈥檛 ready yet… sigh. Well, the good news is, we can change at any moment. And the New Year is certainly an appropriate time to take inventory of what you want to change. 馃枍
Almost a decade and a half later I find myself needing another reboot in my art life. I want more experimentation, more risk-taking, more collaboration, MORE! That鈥檚 what I鈥檇 like to bring into this new year.
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What about you? .
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